God gave us hearts to feel. Mine beats with brokenness because I allow it. I sit in school and burn in my seat. It is worth it, I think; all of this time spent sitting, and some of it learning; all this money spent sitting there and sleeping here. There is a street that calls me to be walked down. I can hardly wait to get out the door. Sometimes my patience exists only in my mind, my heart is already gone, away from everything, away, to where the excess doesn't matter.

Where to live is to survive and joy is an uncluttered a response.

I know more than I live.

I struggle with this all the time. The world is always pulling us this way and that way, how do we keep our balance? Knowledge is useful, but we are conditioned to think it is most important. I know more than I live.

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"Why don't you take in anything I say? This is nothing more than intellectual greed: Some people stuff their rooms full of furniture, others pack their heads with knowledge which they don't need. How simple it is to understand! Christianity isn't what you know. It's a way of life."
-A monk, Pilgrimage To Dzhvari

Motivational Music Not For Everyone.

So Friday night started with a long awaited bang. Due to lack of available parking in Vancouver, I pulled over and let Abbi jump out, and she made a break for the music store. My brother had given me a gift certificate, and it couldn't have come at a better time. No Innocent Victim Had released a new album in November, and I still hadn't heard it.

"To Burn Again" is a gasp for air in a sea of drowning Christian hard core music. Its old school, its full of break downs, and it has real lyrics. Has it been forgotten that whining is still whining even when you try to sound tough? No Innocent Victim released "No Compromise" in 1997, and they still know what those words mean.

The Very Hairs On Your Head.

It is always too late to write. But tonight all the wonder of life mixes with a cold wind that follows the sunset. Like running, and skipping, then tripping and falling. Once on your back all the excitement pauses, and you could lie there for hours... But they're hours I don't have.

My heart is flying.